Over thinking kills happiness, insecurities kill self-esteem and lies kills trust.
I am getting married by the end of this year. Talked to dad about it the other day, he was okay about it. Since my future parents in law can’t come to my hometown, my dad said he will go there to discuss about the marriage with them. Today , when I spoke to dad about this, he was feeling a little uneasy of going there, since I am his daughter, and in chinese culture, the man should go to the bride’s hometown to ask for her hand. But that will not happen since bf sister told me that their parents is too old to travel far. :( . The discussion will only be between him and dad.
Suddenly he said, what’s the use of spending too much money on a wedding when one day it’ll be ruin. My heart breaks… just because two of my sisters doesn’t have a happy marriage ( 1st sister married twice, 2nd sister , single mother) doesn’t mean that my marriage will end up horribly wrong. Holding back my tears when he said like that. In the end I said. I did also mention that we’ll just do the wedding registry only if that’s the case and there will be no wedding reception. He said that would also be okay. My heart shattered once more. Does he not understand that his daughter wants her wedding to be celebrated? I don’t have the mood to talk to him about this anymore. I’ll just leave it that way.
Feels like the wedding is too fast, I only have less than 5 months to prepared everything. I don’t know if it’ll turn out well or not. :( Feel so fed up… if there’s a wedding.. there will be a wedding.. if there’s none… there will be no wedding.. :/ so demotivated . …
I miss you the most at night. When everything is quiet and the silence reminds me that I’m not sleeping next to you.
A moment of silent for everybody whose boobs ruin their graphic tees